Been a long long time since I have written anything… The adrenalin just doesn’t seem to flow…Now that I am back… its time to get to work again… I have been thinking… What makes me tick…!
After careful analysis and rueful internal conflicts over a period of the last few days, I am yet to pinpoint the “tick”…
Money… nah..!
I spend as it comes and never did save a dime.
I always had money problems… didn’t have enough when it mattered…
But really, that never did matter to me… until it suffices in the role of a tool that enables me to do what I want at my whims and fancies…
Success… Partly..
Success being a relative issue with many individual perceptions, success has never driven me far. Yes, being successful as per an average human being’s perception is important… That I am … thought wise, work wise and any wise… but not money wise J
Probably because many of my relatives and friends have branded me a failure in the past has something to do with this… It is my objective to showcase how wrong they were and how mis-perceptive they have been…
Ambition… Yes… That’s it..!
I am an archer and ambitions that I have for myself go very far.. Although my arrows will not travel as far as nuclear warheads… my ambition is to make them surpass the distance.. but not faster.. Slow and steady wins the race…!
Despite all heroics during my teen years, my parents have always encouraged me to commit my own set of mistakes, although the world still criticizes them for it. They have been a very strong driving force behind my partial success and I attribute everything that I have today to their perceptions, encouragement, motivation and the never-say-die attitude they have inculcated in me..
The result is that despite all my failures, I never quit…
Other factors…
Mainly my little kids who look up to me for all their intellectual and physical needs. They are absolute motivation personified for me. I need to set an example for them, as in being a human being first and a successful human being next.
Then is my wife, who has been through all the thick and thin until now… how much more is another ill-quantified question though.. I know she will be around, only if she could cut down on the nagging bit and be a little more supportive… She is more a friend than a wife and I thank myself for it ( I made a wise choice) (a little selfish… egotistic… well I have earned it I guess)…! She needs to shed the negativity and be more positive and she has to come through the customary perceptions and be more open to new concepts and objects in life…
My life is almost complete as I perceive, but there are new horizons to conquer.. My wife needs to come up and encourage me… I am losing my motivation now… What more to live for...?
Well, what’s above is only the current perception, and it changes almost every second… new ideas, new motivations, new objectives….
Whoa… what a car… Rolls…. I want that..?
C ya ltr guys, need to follow that and get one for myself…
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